Summer is almost here and summer in LA always reminds me of some awesome memories made on and around the UCLA campus… those were some fu-u-un times {as im sadly reminded ‘toto were not in college anymore…’} when said a-loud is hard for me to swallow, but… its coming up upon what will be my 10 year anniversary of my move to Los Angeles.
This city has loved me and hated me and coddled me and to be completely honest, pushed me the fuck around. If I have learned anything during this time, it would have to be that the trail you blaze for yourself is dimly lit and is packed full of {for lack of a better description…} full of things that go bump in the night. And as with any milestone I pass it’s that time for me Reassess, prioritize and get shit done. A little over 2 years ago I made 2 decisions which profoundly impacted my life {use your imagination…} and while it took me eons longer that it really should have for my sensibility to rear its ugly head back to reality, what I now realize is that there is never a perfect time, a “right” time do anything really. Sometimes in life, you get to where you think you wanted to go but really its not where you were trying to go at all… and this isn’t the type of shit google maps can help a hommie out with.
You see, my life really hasn’t turned out what I had always envisioned it would be. When I was about 11, I spent countless hours home alone in my room, curtains drawn {my bedroom had a sliding glass door leading out to our gy-normo backyard} choreographing and practicing dance routines {I thought I was a fly girl – yes like from In Living Color} My masterpiece was a one woman dance routine and lip sync show I would perform in time to Dr Dre and Snoops “Aint Nuthin but a G Thang” {and yes, i know every word.. still} So, like I was saying, my life really hasn’t turned out the way I had always envisioned it would be, whats that vision you might ask… a fly girl, duh!
This hasn’t happened yet. YET… just like that sh*t that I was talking about that you cant plug into google maps, this sitch is parallel and happens often in life… you spend so much time imaging your future one way and then you arrive at the “now” only to discover it looks completely different than you pictured and that’s ok because you always possesses the inherent ability to reassess, prioritize and get shit done no matter what bumps in the night you encounter… happy hump day!
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